So Stark (You're a Skyscraper)

criscodisco99 @ 2009-07-05T00:42:00

2009-07-05T06:42:33Z

"The law presides over things of this world, finally. The world where shadow is shadow and light is light, yin is yin and yang is yang, I'm me and he's him. 'I am me and / He is him/ Autumn eve.' But you don't belong to that world, sonny. The world you belong to is above that or below that."

"Which is better?" I asked, out of simple curiosity. "Above or below?"

"It's not that either one is better," he said. After a brief coughing fit, he spat a glob of phlegm onto a tissue and studied it closely before crumpling the tissue and throwing it into a wastebasket. "It's not a question of better or worse. The point is, not to resist the flow. You go up when you're supposed to go up and down when you're supposed to go down. When you're supposed to go up, find the highest tower and climb to the top. When you're supposed to go down, find the deepest well and go down to the bottom. When there is no flow, stay still. If you resist the flow, everything dries up. If everything dries up, the world is darkness. 'I am he and/ He is me:/ Spring nightfall.' Abandon the self, and there you are."

criscodisco99 @ 2009-05-12T22:25:00

2009-05-13T02:33:29Z

i've been called snappy in recent weeks, like some sort of turtle- but instead of having a shell i have a blue sweatshirt and i make jokes about your mother. In all likelyhood its because i'm slowly becoming a horrible person/jerkface extreme/normal person/overexagerator.

K is pretty kool. Perhaps it is even kerrific. or kuper. god knows we like putting k's where they do not belong. i would now make a joke about white power, but i think it would hit a little closer to home- why ain't we the wasps? i'm sure i'm the first person to make that joke

why don't folks fucking use names in LJ? It would add a nice callout element- i'm tired of reading entries about him and her and whatnot. I can only conclude that there is a single, nameless, person of uncertian gender who prevents my friends from achieving sex and or happiness (one could argue they are one and the same, eh, eh, eh?)

why can't i marry myself yet/if i clone myself, can i gay marry it? can i oppisite marry it if i throw in an extra x chrom?

these are the questions i go to college to answer

criscodisco99 @ 2009-04-06T11:00:00

2009-04-06T15:21:19Z

we were braiding birdsongs into white noise
asleep in our horse drawn beds
...
i want your flowers like
babies want god's love
...
as a way of getting in touch with my origins
every night i set up the alarm clock
for the time i was born so that waking up
becomes a historical reenactment
...
Papa died Sunday and I understood
All dead white boys say, "God is good"
White tongues hang out, "God is good"
...
Momma died at the Food Lion
...
There were no new ways to understand the world
only new days to set our understandings against

and thus, and so on, and so forth, et al.

Sometimes i just fall in love with silly sentances that may or may not mean something.
Just the construction- the way the words lean on one another

I'm in the sort of mood that can only be expressed by a sly smile- a happiness, a contentment, so able to affirm itself
that it sees no need to surface

All of my feelings might be plagarized
but what does that really mean?
every feeling has been felt, recorded, so on
but likewise, every breath you take
is someone else's sloppy seconds

I doubt i write on this thing enough, and the halflife of this entry might be interesting, but sometimes you know
you have to say hi

Hello!

criscodisco99 @ 2009-02-22T14:15:00

2009-02-22T19:16:55Z

he who wants to keep the garden tidy doesn't reserve a plot for weeds

Jason Anderson can say it better than I

2009-02-13T00:34:11Z

There's wanting and regret
The setting back of clocks
Forgetting and nostalgia
And dusk at 4 pm

There's detachment and resolve
The poignancy of winter
The skins we shed and ones we grow
There are scabs

There's forgiveness and relief
The illusion of indifference
A box of notes and keepsakes
I can't seem to discard

So come on down to my basement room
Let's page through this thesaurus
And find a better synonym
For loss

We'll share a glass of lemonade
And go through some old photographs
And understand that love doesn't die
It just changes

Well there're hours and there're days
There's longing and second guessing
An advent calendar's tiny doors
Mark progress and control

criscodisco99 @ 2009-02-11T17:00:00

2009-02-11T22:01:45Z

even if it's sadness, at least's theres a simplicity to it- a clarity that makes the air a little brighter, colors a little more vivid.

criscodisco99 @ 2008-12-29T02:30:00

2008-12-29T07:32:42Z

the only thing i fear is to live a life of no account.

and the award from the banal lj post goes to me

life is good, but the weather is still my archnemisis

criscodisco99 @ 2008-12-02T13:40:00

2008-12-02T18:42:48Z

I declare jihad on the english language, and all creative writing.

ice may lack a certain nice, but winter is no splinter faction- life is growing wellish. Break will either be a break or break me, you decide, we report.

She's a real she'll never fall
Waits in the taxi if room service calls
I've been with viceroys and I've been with kings
In your emporium it's golden late ring

criscodisco99 @ 2008-11-02T18:03:00

2008-11-02T23:06:49Z

I am an optimist. It does not seem too much use being anything else.
-Winston Churchill

What else can i say? Life is interesting. Interesting is a mixed bag. Roll with the punches, etc.

criscodisco99 @ 2008-10-13T19:32:00

2008-10-13T23:33:01Z

I Love Charles Barkley

2008-06-07T04:43:05Z

Quoth our lord charles:
On the goal of the '92 Olympic Dream Team when playing Panama in the Tournament of the Americas: "To get the Canal back."

criscodisco99 @ 2008-04-19T21:52:00

2008-04-20T01:53:08Z

But your painted pony is fading
Lost like a snakeskin in high grass
and out there thrashing like a pet bird caught in a jet stream; that's me
You count on blessings cause your net worth
oughta be less cream in your best drinks
But God put a song on my palm that you can't read

story of my life.

criscodisco99 @ 2008-03-02T17:31:00

2008-03-02T22:38:07Z

i visited Kalamazoo College yesterday. Before, i was pretty torn, maybe leaning a little towards Albion. Leaving, i pretty much knew where i was going.

Why? Well, the social studies panel had a few interesting characters. For example, a Political Science major who spent half a year in Kenya, studying at a University. Oh, and on the side he worked with the International Republican Institute to train canidates from underrepresented groups on how to run an election. Or the anthro major who spent half a year in Thailand, traveling the country and taking classes. He also worked with a group that produced materials for democracy advocates in Burma.

Every student i talked too had an equally impressive story.

criscodisco99 @ 2008-02-11T16:22:00

2008-02-11T21:23:44Z

i want/need to learn a language at some point. Which should i try over the summer/spring?

I'm leaning French

criscodisco99 @ 2008-02-03T20:16:00

2008-02-04T01:16:29Z

We are the ones we have been waiting for.

criscodisco99 @ 2008-01-31T17:37:00

2008-01-31T22:38:04Z

She said you'd given up,
Your folks told me you should be left alone,
On a mountain top knocking the aeroplanes down with stones.
Do the whirlwind and carry the hope that stings all night long,
Don't abandon him 'cause he quivers when he hears your song,

Believe me, it's safe to see.
At least be confused about right and wrong,
Plan to settle down,
Over the moon under the sun.
Do the whirlwind and shotgun the seat that beats that beats
Hanging on to the one you love
To keep keepin', sleepin', dreamin' on.

Folks given up under the quivers and lines,
You do the whirlwind,
Don't abandon, 
Get a handle of yourself, son.

criscodisco99 @ 2008-01-18T18:04:00

2008-01-18T23:04:47Z

So you have some curb appeal
but can you cook a three course meal?

criscodisco99 @ 2008-01-16T12:45:00

2008-01-16T17:48:44Z

But it's not the time to ossify
It's not the end of wondering why
It's not in your faith or your apostasy
It's not the end of history

hmm. It's a weird time? I've been here before, i wasn't fond of it. In fact, one could argue i disliked it. It's true. Fuck.

I need a little bit of resolve, it would make my life a little bit a lot easier.

It's weird how you can have so much to say to someone for so long, and then bam, you have scant a word for them. I guess thats life.

criscodisco99 @ 2008-01-14T18:43:00

2008-01-14T23:43:38Z

i'm gonna shave my head, listen to prog rock and move to ohio

theres nothing you can do to stop it

criscodisco99 @ 2008-01-06T02:22:00

2008-01-06T07:24:26Z

I should be fired up, ready to go, but really i'm more tired up, ready to snore.

Things that have nothing to do with my life make it worthwhile while i cease to have cohrent emotions

criscodisco99 @ 2008-01-02T17:46:00

2008-01-02T22:47:13Z

This should either be easier or harder.

Fuck

criscodisco99 @ 2007-12-31T02:50:00

2007-12-31T07:56:18Z

It's always really weird when you take a step back and look at things. Cliche but true. I guess that's why the high gods invented breaks. So i have time for this introspective shit. Oh swell.

2007 was all in all a rather strong year. It's weird how i'm in a completely different place from this time last year, but still in the exact same place in some regards.

I'm eagerly anticipating losing my mind when clinton somehow defies logic and rightousness and waltzes through primary season. Oh well.

New Years Resolutions/Suggestions:

Don't make the same mistakes i always make (general/vague, but i know what it means)
Superpowers

Nuff said.

criscodisco99 @ 2007-12-29T22:16:00

2007-12-30T03:19:38Z

Hermitage becomes increasingly attractive

Attn: World

2007-12-21T21:03:27Z

Hey, unless your name is Zach Holden, please don't go around trying to talk about what's best for me. I think i have the final call on that one.

criscodisco99 @ 2007-12-16T21:26:00

2007-12-17T02:28:22Z

my achievements this weekend

concordat
romance
golden compass
snow
coughing

I have a cat, i put a hat on it. Why is there no whimsy. Seuss was rather flimsy in his designs.